Sunday, July 11, 2010

Today's Tantrum

     Today, I am wearing my emotions on my sleeve!  These feelings come and go and my tantrum is only temporary.
      It all started on my patio this weekend.  I put out some appetizers, Sonja brought the booze and Wendy made her famous guacamole.  One thing is for certain when we get together.....you never know what our topic of conversation is going to be.  This particular night it got a little heavy.  Sonja having lost both her parents, Wendy losing her dad at a very young age and I, myself not having lost either of my parents yet..... I posed the question........how do you work through and come to terms with forgiving your parents especially when they don't feel they have wronged you or they know they have wronged you but they refuse to seek your forgivness???? 
      I have wrestled with this for many years!  I have heard it all.  "Oh your parents are doing the best they can", or "it's just that generation"!  Well,  I am here to tell you.... I am upset because I am suppose to let it go unexcused while I am expected to be accountable for all my actions.  It's just not fair but then again life isn't fair but trying to get my heart to understand what my head knows are two very different things!
     How can I let go of the past that haunts me, deal with the present that irriatates me and hope for healing and forgivness in the future.  When the time comes and my parents pass on, I want to truly be at peace knowing all is well.  That is the answer I seek!


 

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